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Sunday, February 09, 2020

A Loss and a Gain

There is a loss and a gain 
amidst sorrow and pain, 
and I haven’t quite figured out 
how to embrace that fact. 
I had one who encouraged me, 
always on my side, 
one who built me up when my faith lacked. 
It is such a strange thought to sit with,
as the heart and the mind try to put back the pieces 
that only a deep love can fill. 
On one hand, we count the blessings, 
we rejoice in the complete healing, 
and in the Glory that our dearly loved is now surrounded by. 
On the other hand, we wish they were with us still, 
and we even question, "why?"
There is a loss and a gain amidst sorrow and pain, 
and I haven’t figured out 
how to embrace them both yet. 
It’s as if something is missing, 
as I sit in a crowded room, 
and then I realize that it’s the one who 
brought the whole room together in the first place. 
I have to rejoice in the completed race; 
in the kept faith. 
Yet, someone is missing.
Someone is missing as we are all gathered around. 
What’s left now is a legacy. 
What’s left is a call to be kind, to love well, 
and to see the beauty in this world while we’re in it. 
There’s a loss and a gain, 
and I think I can accept them both, 
if you will just give me a minute. 
I fumble for words, but I know this is true- 
we only have so much time on this earth. 
When I ask myself, “what is it worth?”, 
I wonder if my actions will echo into eternity. 
I wonder if my grandma thought the same 
each time she shared the love of Christ 
to a child sitting on her knee. 
There’s a loss and a gain amidst sorrow and pain, 
and I have to rejoice in a life well lived.